la vie en rose

AH!!!!!!

2006-02-11T22:40:00.000+08:00

well, finished my attachment, all in all i must say its quite a cool experience. its like the most enriching time in my stint in the army. nurses have my respect man.

rant

2006-01-14T19:35:00.000+08:00

fuqtup!!! fuqtup!!1 wat's wrong with normal and logical thinking? what happened to brains and common sense in this world? in trying to get something that is totally unattainable, lives are wrecked and upsetted! people are inconvenienced just because of something called pride. ay forget it la, wat's not yours will not be yours la, stop trying so hard for something that will not come to you. for that elusive moment of fame. stop it i say stop it!!

wow one year birthday

2005-10-30T17:04:00.000+08:00

was looking through my blog, when it struck me that this blog has been around for one year. and not much has been changed. tons of crap and rubbish has been typed, angst and rants expressed. its been one year. its amazing how i have been able to keep this blog for one year. what started out as a whim, to see what blogging has been about, till now, its still a whim and a novelty. and it will always be, cos i can't be bothered. stay tuned to this blog, for more bad english and lots of expression errors. to see how i'm going to play dota and still suck badly at it. noobs rule man. cheerios.

1x post on a monday morning

2005-10-24T10:46:00.000+08:00

just updating, although i doubt if anyone bothers about it. so its like i went to brunei and came back. overseas training that sort of thing. camped out in the jungle, looked at the endless trees and interesting rock formations and ridges. cursed the rain that never fails to fall, getting everyone wet, cold and hungry. its been quite an uneventful 2 weeks, thankfully. we also did abit of sightseeing and tour. ate their buffet, shopped a little. basically a touristy kind of tour. visited 2 museums, the malay technological museum, and the royal regalia museum, if you are interested as to where i went...

so i took a flight back to singapore on the 20, went mad when i saw the east coast coastline, saw bedok jetty, my camp, and of course the control tower. it feels good to be home. home, where the heart is. to board the mrt, go past expo, tanah merah, bedok, kembangan, eunos, paya lebar. ahh music to the ears, all these names. to see the road signs in english, that's a relief. but i must say its an interesting 2 weeks. albeit, not to be repeated of course.

alright its a short post. because i won't know what to write next. and i shan't bore you with the details of the trip. i miss everyone. how about meeting up ?

pre trip post

2005-10-05T15:34:00.000+08:00

nothing much. was given half day off and a full day, before my trip to brunei. its going to be an experiance i guess. there will be lots of snakes and scorpions, indigenious people everywhere. there are even stories of headhunters living in this age. hopefully i survive all of these and come back in one piece. back to the sweet sweet embrace of civilisation.

after this milestone trip, i will be looking forward to ord.

you're beautiful

2005-09-27T11:44:00.000+08:00

saw the "you're beautiful" mtv by james blunt. haha the first thing that struck me was why was he stripping for the entire length of the song. and then he took off his shoes and took out his stuff in the pocket and displayed everything. then jumped off into the big sea. and that's the end. very mysterious and no link.

cleaning up

2005-09-27T11:20:00.000+08:00

its so rare that i get day offs. so time to clean up abit. enjoy a spot of morning sunshine. listen to some swing hits, like washington and lee swing, and Louis Armstrong and the Dukes of Dixieland. nothing to buoy your spirits, leading up to the not so enthusiastic trip to Brunei. land of the holy for my muis friend. its said that they will play the prayer call in loud speakers, that no matter where in the jungle also can hear one.

haha now i'm getting excited just thinking about my ord date. where your life really starts.

morbid

2005-09-01T15:33:00.000+08:00

due to a recent spate of conjunctivitis cases, i had a nightmare about it. its quite a horrible one.

so here i was happily doing my own stuff with my family, think shopping at some courts store. when i noticed my eyes turning red, while looking at myself in the mirror. so i thought nothing of it you see. as time progresses, i was actually tearing red liquid which i think was blood. and i was tearing non-stop. but as it does not hurt or bother me, i did not actually do anything about it. so the horrible part came, when as i was washing my face, my corneas came off. i was like totally freaked out, i think i screamed also. i was not wearing contact lens, and the thing that came off looked like some sort of contact lens... certainly freaky.

so embarassing

2005-08-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

haha so embarassing....
i think i need a pair of new specs, and maybe a new hairdo... i look quite bad in a photograph. some more i'm looking down, that's like horrible man. then my specs keep slipping down my nose, so its like some sort of pervert..

die also die alone

2005-08-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

you know how people are social creatures, at least for the majority. so its like eating meals alone would be a bore, and its preferable to eat in the company of others, food tastes nicer somehow. so one day, as i was out walking back to camp, i espied upon my friend, eating alone at a hawker centre. so i went like over to him. i said in jest, "ay so lonely ar, eat alone, like very sad like that." and he came up with this superb reply, "aiyah die also die alone, so what's the point?" and i continued on my journey back to camp. life still goes on you know....

tku affc

2005-08-04T16:34:00.000+08:00

no thanks to someone, i can't help but laugh at the word kris.

and so it goes, adriel goes out on a quest, to rid the world of evil and sadness. looking for the mythical flower, floweronsomeforgottenmountaintop. as usual the quest is fraught with danger. otherwise how can it be a quest? but our hero forges on relentlessly, ever cheerful and optimistic....

driving

2005-07-29T17:42:00.000+08:00

had driving lessons today, nearly caused a couple of accidents on the road. ah well all in a days' worth of lessons. i'm in seriously lack of sleep, was actually stoning during the lesson. very dangerous.

yay ndp coming in a couple of weeks time, my saturdays are coming back!! oh how i miss my saturdays, the lazy afternoons stoning and slacking in the knowledge that there will always be a sunday to slack further. there are also the cheesy japanese drama reruns that i've been missing. saturdays here i come. haha eternal bliss.

cd

2005-07-24T18:47:00.000+08:00

succumbed to the irresistable lure of music. bought a bossa nova compilation. quite worth the money i think. although i was torn between lisa ono and this. eventually the fact that i can buy 2 disc for $18.90 instead of one, won out. but i'll be getting lisa ono soon. maybe next month.

phone trouble and bad service

2005-07-06T12:45:00.000+08:00

went to get new line yesterday. today, got a bit of trouble cancelling the old line. went into quite abit of hassle. i hate this contract shit. so the story goes like:

wanted a cheaper phone line. so using my 11B got meself a corporate line. which is a bargain actually, $19.60 for 2 years, free incoming all day. so those buggers from work can call for all they want, asking where did i put this put that... so it went quite smoothly. till the part where my mother had to cancel the line which i'm currently using. seems like she can't cancel, because the contract has not really expired yet. and there will be liquidation damages of $250 imposed. that's when the trouble starts. i'm stuck with two lines, and its not a good sign. i will be paying for both the line. its evry painful and heart wrenching.... so much for saving money. hate all these hassle of mobile line. reading in between the lines of the contract that sort of rubbish. the worst part is the loopholes which you can't use.

on the same day, i went to sim lim square to look for a digicam. it has the worst service i have ever seen. the shopkeepers think they are god sent or something. its like the customers are some lower life forms that don't deserve attention. or maybe its because i'm not some tourist with ready cash. the attitude and the vibe which they gave me was like i'm a waste of their time. its very infuriating. in the end i just gave up. that will be probably the last time i went there. i rather pay more with good service. service with a smile. why do you think they call it retail therapy? its because salespeople make your day. they make you happy and its thereupatic.

and the new paper gave them 14 out of 20 stars. i think it warrants even lesser than that.

phone trouble and bad service

2005-07-06T12:44:00.000+08:00

retail

2005-07-05T11:55:00.000+08:00

i bought another cd. something about french love songs... quite nice, but i wonder if its overrated(?) $29.60. and i think i fell for the last 20 copies trick... what only music junction sells this thing. playing at selected delifrance store. but one thing's for sure, there is this overall mood that is quite nice. overall part of me thinks i'm being ripped off, the other says its alright. quite ambivalent about it...

random thought

2005-07-03T15:07:00.000+08:00

having a three day break this coming week. feeling all down and out. maybe its because i'm tired. where's everyone? woke up at 12pm this morning. slept at 3 am last night. done ndp cover. saw a chick from ncc. actually saw 2 chicks from ncc and one form st john. wanted to take picture with the ncc chicks with my friend. but they left too fast. listening to let's get it started by black eyed peas. played dota this morning. as usual sucked at it. think i'm going blind, from the many hours spent in front of the com. gotta stay away from the com. went to wild wild wet again for unit anniversary. had some fun. was less crowded than the last time round. its fun overturning everyone's float. this week quite a good week. spent nearly everyday sleeping at home. hope i can go for the chalet this 17 july. camp mates invented a newgame called battleships. its a game where we poke each other's chest. the winner is the one who can hit the nipple. of course its played with the shirt on. otherwise what's the point of playing. had the song "stay" playing on repeat mode yesterday in my head. head banging to the boulevard of broken dreams now. planning to get a new phone. and new specs, thinking of the transition lens thing. the one which can turn dark under sunlight. its quite cool i think. i want to meet my friends these three days which i'm on holiday. anyone free? wow the bass is good man. saw the tong hua mtv, somehow it affected me in a funny way. but its a the usual taiwan melodrama fare, with the girl being sassy and vivacious, suddenly coming down with cancer. the guy spent the few final months with her. so the climax goes like, this guy brings her so a concert hall stage, where the spotlight is shining on the grand piano. so he plays some song. barely into the song she faints. probably she was standing up for too long while he plays. he should like get her to sit beside him at the piano. its more romantic this way. standing up while listening is like abit too distant and formal. so she fainted and blood was like pouring from nose, and she died in the end. felt quite sad after watching the mtv.

yes as you have noticed. i'm writing without paragraphing. this one don't count. thought it would be interesting to just type what i think without processing. anyway can't be bothered to process ocz still tired.

relatively long post

2005-06-26T17:31:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i whined on this page. i got quite a surprise when kang hao posted that he wanted updates on my comments. thought no one would bother with this page which i set up on a whim. i'm a natural sloth, so it takes quite an effort to post something on this page.

current updates in my life. 9 more months to ord, which i'm happily counting down. doing national day parade this year, so weekends are spent camping at the padang, checking out the babes, which are very young.

so erm that's about it for my life. not much to begin with in the first place. how's that for updates? and yah, i have dry hands which are peeling. its not a pretty sight.

so what did i do today? went out with my mother to bishan, coz she wanted to talk to her niece. i indulged in a bit of retail therapy, buying a compilation album of nat king cole at the movies. has great tracks like LOVE, dream a little dream of me, and some other songs i have yet to check them out.

so what moronic thing did i do today? well basically, as i was getting out of the mert station, i tapped on the counter, expecting the barrier in front of me to open up. but the barrier next to me open up, coz i tapped on the counter on my left. so i stood there wondering why the barrier doesn't open up. then i realised my mistake, tried to go through the one on my left, but halfway through was a bit scared that the barrier will close on me.

played dota this morning, which i sucked at terribly. but the adrenaline rush upon defeating the opponent is certainly quite something.

did NDP cover on saturday. quite an experiance i must say. all those interacting with the civilians and school kids. at least they bothered to say thank you and not trouble you anymore. but its the marching band that got me itching. itching to play again. feel the vibration of the instrument, the nicely seasoned reed, the feeling of smoothness. it doesn't help when i'm cooped up in the container all day, the only sole purpose is to answer a phone like gadget. where there is a operator, connecting calls. its very old school. so its like the band playing outside got me thinking about my school days, nostalgia seeping into my very being. some more yuanqin called saying they are having dinner with yirong coz she came back. i was like oh my gosh, why am i here in this place?

so its like an exhausting week. this year certainly sucks. just realised i have spent one year in this battalion of mine.

put your head on my shoulder...

SONG

2005-05-15T10:38:00.000+08:00

its interesting how songs evoke memories for me. i was listening to "dream a little dream of me" when it reminded me of my days spent going outfield in lim chu kang.

i was walking in the dense vegetation, which was designed to trip me in every way possible. it was in the still of the night and like pitch dark, pretty much can't see anything. it was a very exhausting walk i must say. so here i am trudging along, with the moronic bag with tons of medical supplies, and the imbecilic rifle, swinging around. then *ding* this song goes on in my head. its the phenomenon described as earworm, where a song goes on and on and on like the bunny for the duracell ad. it sort of kept me occupied for the night, took my mind off the word "TIRING" screamed continually at me by my body. in the peaceful night, this song is appropriate.

watched 50 first dates in camp last week. this is the second time which i know of adam sandler and drew barrymore starring opposite each other. the first was the wedding singer. they have a very good on screen chemistry. its a joy to watch them, i feel. they share a chemistry that is sort of laidback, not so intense,like those kind of give each other smouldering look, the electric touch, till death do us part that sort of thing. its a nice movie overall. and the theme song is also delightful, "wouldn't it be nice" by the beach boys. if you had heard it before, yes its the one that the cadbury ad is playing right now.

for me if i like the movie, i will also most likely take a shine to the theme song as well. its because of the images that the song accompanies, and the meaning and the feel behind it. i'm a sucker for it. mtv don't work for me though, because it makes no sense.

letter to myself

2005-05-14T11:43:00.000+08:00

hello,
how are you getting along? how's life in camp? how's life in general?

As for me, not doing much. bumming away every weekend without fail. took up abit of driving. quite an experience i must say. its abit harder than i thought. can't seem to get my steering right. i steer like a drunkard, probably a hazard to those other students in the circuit. haha frightened quite a number of them along the way. also had a bit of psycho-motor problem also. so it will take time.

that's all

yours faithfully
me

mayday

2005-05-07T13:16:00.000+08:00

yes yes yes, its the glorious month of may, with two fabulous holidays. of which one would be spent serving the country as usual. nine more months and i would be a free man.

did a calender with my friend. came with two word play on the word may for the calender. so it goes like "how MAY i help you?". that's mine by the way. the other one is even cooler. its goes like "MAY the force be with you" seeing as how star wars episode 3 is coming out. its a appropriate title for the month of may. now you see how slack and bored we are in camp.

innane question

2005-04-24T20:01:00.000+08:00

something i thought about, when i'm doing cover.

who will win if sonic and roadrunner and speedy gonzales were to race?

of golden balls and destiny

2005-04-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

watched this cool retro japanese show about bowling, starring takeshi kaneshiro and some actress which i do not know of the name. its about this guy and this girl, who are members of this bowling club. the show talks about relationship, amid friendly bowling matches. every episode will feature bowling matches between some rival and these two people. it also features hilarious names like, "bye bye love" where two bowling pins will be left standing, like goal posts at the opposite ends. it seems like its a taboo to knock them down coz, these two pins are like lovers, if they are knocked down, it means to say one of the lovers will meet a tragic death or something... then there's the other one called "poison ivy" where bowling pins are left standing three in a row diagonally. reason its called poison ivy, is coz the 3 pins will cling to each other, like the ivy plant to the wall. and it looks like damn hard to knock down.

this show has like got lots of eye candy and dramatic bowling...

now you know how i spend my saturdays....

oops its bye bye split instead of bye bye love

scent

2005-03-20T14:25:00.000+08:00

The smell of haze lingers in the lazy sunday afternoon air. memories of chinese new year in primary school, dragonball comics, come flooding in. syf practice in dunman also have this lingering tinge. lionel just messaged about philharmonic orchestra playing 3rd symphony in vch this coming friday. anyone up for it?

minesweeper

2005-03-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

i'm now addicted to playing minesweeper. how cool is that?

angsty

2005-03-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

i am so full of angst, bubbling and bubbling.

lovefool

2005-03-06T19:11:00.000+08:00

got this craze for this song. currently. probably will play it for quite a long time, till everyone is sick of it. the techno thing is quite catchy.

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem

you love me no longer, I know

and maybe there is nothing

that I can do to make you do

Mama tells me I shouldn't bother

that I ought to stick to another man

a man that surely deserves me

but I think you do!

So I cry, I pray and I beg

Love me love me

say that you love me

fool me fool me

go on and fool me

love me love me

pretend that you love me

leave me leave me

just say that you need me

Love me love me

say that you love me

leave me leave me

just say that you need me

I can't care 'bout anything but you...

Lately I have desperately pondered

,spent my nights awake and I wonder

what I could do have done in another way

to make you stay

Reason will not lead to solution

I will end up lost in confusion

I don't care if you really care

as long as you don't go

So I cry, I pray, and I beg

Love me, love me

Say that you love me

Fool me, fool me

Go on and fool me

Love me, love me

Pretend that you love me

Leave me, leave me

Just say that you need me

So I cry, and I pray for you to

Love me, love me

Say that you love me

Leave me, leave me

Just say that you need me

I can't care 'bout anything but you...

Anything but you...

Love me, love me (Say that you love me)

Fool me, fool me (Go on and fool me)

Love me, love me (I know that you need me)

I can't care 'bout anything but you..

a series of unfortunate events

2005-02-27T16:36:00.000+08:00

this few weeks has been of a most unfortunate experiance. as they say, bad luck always come in three hit combos or even more. it feels terrible to hit the rut, getting whacked left, right, centre, everywhere. no freedom anymore. no booking out on weekdays, its only limited to tuesdays and thursdays, and even then, there is roll call at night to ensure that everyone comes back in. no sleeping till 7 am in the morning, having to queue with stinky people in the morning for breakfast. marching to the cookhouse, booking in on sunday night 11 pm. my life slowly wilting away in camp. my long weekend is in danger of being taken away, there is the possibility of staying in camp for half a day more on saturday. how? how? how? this is a horrific life. i want to ord. its irritating the hell out of me.

its a sad life here. being taken for granted, not even a word of thanks for the job done. it seems like everyone view us as people who are easily bullied, just because the big boss don't like us. times are bad, no one is on our side.

the only respite that we get is the comradeship we have with each other. fighting with laughter and making fun of everyone. but still it sucks totally.

there is the sense of helplessness and frustration that comes every single day i spend there. the pent up angst at the stupidity of the whole situation that i'm in. and i can't get out of it. its not like i can quit this job. and i have no grounds to ask for a post out. so i'm stuck here. slowly plodding my way to ord, that its so painful.

my name is jun yuan, asshole

2005-02-12T19:30:00.000+08:00

made a trip down to gv tampines to watch this constantine show.

the cinema ads are quite good, although a bit too long. it will be nice if they show the nike ads too, the recent ones you know? where they show all those fancy footwork, and the very pissed off old lady, with the name alex fergursen (correct?). that's humourous. some possible shows to look out for is the "a series of unfortunate events" coming out in march. and also the japanese anime, "howl's moving castle. i'm quite a sucker for cinema shows, especially those very lame ones, and they know it.

so anyway, the show is quite ok, very edgy and fast paced blah blah blah. i tend to have this thing for the eternal strugggle between good and evil, monsters and heroes with lots of spells and good-looking weapons, and the occasional cgi. its a genre i would watch.

went to kenneth's house for yong tau foo steamboat. its a nice steamboat. learned a couple more things about mahjong too, although its a bit fast. no time to relax.

happy new year.

this valentine's day weekend, i'm bringing janice, my girlfriend-to-be, to the orchard youth park to watch her favourite movie 50 first dates. then i would give her a bunch of roses, by then she would be so totally in love with me, and i with her.

crappy week

2005-02-06T17:31:00.000+08:00

why is it that everyone thinks that medics are slack. and derive pleasure from piling us with lots a meaningless work.

anyway, chinese new year is coming up, so looking forward to a new year. hopefully there will be less meaningless work to be done. let me work for another year peacefully, then ord. go on to uni, graduate, and work. buy a car, prefably a volkswagon beetle, and a family car, suv that sort of thing. get a house. get rich, die. that's my life in summary. details will be worked out as i progress.

so, err happy chinese new year in the mean time.

la vie en rose

2005-01-29T17:53:00.000+08:00

its amazing how powerful soundtracks stay in your mind. theme songs don't have to be powerful, but coupled with beautiful images, it will just stay forever in the mind. the older songs are always the nicest, because of the warm musky sound...

so anyway watch love me if you dare, although i don't agree with the ending. i'm an advocate of happy endings. there are too many sad endings in life. so why still have a sad ending in the movie? a movie is a means of escape from the everyday life.

shopping trip

2005-01-23T11:16:00.000+08:00

went on a shopping trip in bugis yesterday. so i went into seiyu, wandering around with no intent and aim. then i saw muji. went in to take a look. was very amazed by the products on sale there. all of the stuff there are very minimalistic. and the colours are very natural. which comprises of brown, white and transparent and a hint of gray. and the coolest thing i saw there was a cd player which looks like a book. its as big as a encyclopedia. damn cool. it costs a very expensive $600++. and it certainly is a very cool player to own. most of the stuff are quite expensive, but comes with replaceable parts. so its like built to last. anyway the company's mission statement and policy are quite environmentaly friendly, with no packaging and focusing on quality. but its damn blardy expensive...

ate turkish food at far east. ice cream tastes funny though.

swing swing swing

2005-01-22T10:34:00.000+08:00

tried the wholivesnearyou.com thing. quite a creepy experiance. seeing your neighbour online. anyway its quite boring coz its a mostly guy environment for my flat. but still its wierd. actually making contact with someone who lives like next door online. but don't talk when in the lift everyday.

why do snakes slide from side to side when moving. why can't they move in a straight line.

a date with the vampire

2005-01-14T22:20:00.000+08:00

saw the show in the medical centre. quite a entertaining show. especially this girl called ma xiaoling. she has quite a mesmerising mole on her upper lip. although its like a small mole, it just gets your attention. somehow the mole just sort of beautifies the person... or maybe i'm into the mole stage of my life, where i appreciate moles. its still funny.

recruits came in today for bmt. when am i going to ord?

quite a sedate life i have here. had a gossip session, about the future two i/c. seems like public enemy no 1. shan't say much. and this is my life...

nice to mole you

friday night dead

2005-01-07T20:55:00.004+08:00

watching crappy show on ch 8. haha banal banter, its a very entertaining watch though. ooohh, seems like the new serial is airing. looks promising, thought a bit formulaic. with the usual sissy and aquas.

read a bit of the news about the tsunami relief. seems like everyone is doing a good job of it. its heartening to read about the aid that is being pledged to help the people in the tsunami disaster. hopefully something good will come out of this disaster, the countries affected will get a overhaul.

friday noght

2005-01-07T20:55:00.003+08:00

friday noght

2005-01-07T20:55:00.002+08:00

friday noght

2005-01-07T20:55:00.001+08:00

friday noght

2005-01-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

rain drops keep falling on my head

2005-01-02T18:34:00.000+08:00

its been raining these past few days. rain and rain and rain. downright depressing. melancholic skies and the bitter winds cutting through my flat does not help at all. had a brief respite from all the doom and gloom and coldness, watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s. really laughed myself silly, no wonder its a comedy that can last for ten years. watched f.r.i.e.n.d.s with friends. how cool is that? lifted the spirits of an otherwise gloomy day.

i don't want to miss a thing

2004-12-31T18:17:00.000+08:00

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away and dreaming I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Well, every moment spent with you Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do I'd still miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you Feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together

And I just wanna stay with you

In this moment forever, forever and ever I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do I'd still miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing I don't wanna miss one smile

I don't wanna miss one kiss

Well, I just wanna be with you

Right here with you, just like this I just wanna hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And just stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes

Don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do

'Cause I'd still miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do

I'd still miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes

Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss a thing

christmas

2004-12-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

spent an enjoyable christmas night at kenneth's place. met up with quite a number of pple. people do look different for every meeting. but the feeling is still the same every time. being together and doing stupid stuff. not restricted by age. its being 14, 15, 16 all over again. "every time we meet, we grow youger by a few years"

the feeling is nice. hope we can continue this for some more to come.

was very pleasantly surprised when fontane made a appearance. haha too stunned already... damn happy also.

its a nice christmas, considering that we dun see each other so often. the feeling, the chemistry, x factor watever is still there.

so for the last time till next year. merry christmas. happy boxing day.

one more christmas and 2 more new year to ORD. ord loh!

band and mac

2004-12-11T18:22:00.000+08:00

haha, damn high now. played in the alumni band yesterday. its a decision i did not regret making. had a chance to touch the bari sax, feels damn good. to actually play together, its a wonderful thing. saw a number of familiar faces too, so its quite a good thing. caught up with them on life and the latest gossip, although its for a few short minutes. saw the sec 4s too, although not much of a looker most of them. but the trombone girls are damn tall, dunno why also. so that's about all there is to say for the alumni band yesterday. ms chew also quite surprise to see me too. thought i won't show up for this sort of thing. but you may never know. life is full of surprises. its this few surprises that makes life worth living. its the icing of a otherwise ordinary cake. hopefully there will be more session.

anyway, just found out that the mac near my home just closed down. was saddened by this sudden turn of events. its been with me for most of me childhood. all the hotcake happy meals breakfast when i was just a tot of 4 years old. the occasional breakfast there with my family, whenever there were coupons to be distributed. ice cream with xiaohan when her piano lesson was conducted at a cc near my home. that was like in sec 3, gawky 15 year old then, talking cock with a friend, enjoying the company that friendship offered, plus the satisfaction of a 50 cent ice cream. then there was a time where everyone stopped at the mac after performing to get a late night supper. met mr kiw along the way too. of course there is the occasional late lunch takeaways. its been there for the most part of my life on this earth. sometimes its really true that you won't know what you are missing till its gone. or maybe its just me being sentimental and wishy washy.

ord loh!!

2004-11-29T14:56:00.000+08:00

yeap, having a ord dinner tonight. although it is like 16 more months to go. features a wet t shirt performance. dunno how wet its gonna be. i shall find out tonight...

desire

2004-11-28T16:13:00.000+08:00

i have a desire.

volkswagon beetles are damn cool. its in my wishlist of life. a beetle with a hot pink finishing, how cool can that be? gonna own one. never had a desire for a car, until my eyes set upon the beetle, on a sunnyday, in a showroom. its love at first sight. the heady rush of feelings, when my gaze fell on the beetle. its puppy love all over again.

i have a wish

try busking on weekends, play the saxophone that sort of thing. with whoever wants to join in. because i don't have the balls to do it on my own. and anyway, i need a motivating factor. that's coz i'm a procrastinator.

i have a dream

to have loads and loads of money. do the funky design job sort of thing. with funds, i will be ble to do stuff that i always want to do.

i want

to learn the double bass. i think its a damn cool instrument to learn. bass lines are easier and sounds more funky than melodic lines. and anyway, bass players are hard to come by. although harp players are even harder... hear that?

i have a wish

to own all the nice stuff in the world.

2004-11-28T10:22:00.000+08:00

damn can't stop it!! mononoke neh neh hen da....

fantasy variations

2004-11-28T09:58:00.000+08:00

haha listening to fantasy variations right now. its one of the coolest songs ever played in my life. brings back so much memories. each variation reminds me of my friends, the times we had. those drama mama days. its so stupid its hilarious. studying in classrooms. the cool breeze blowing into the room. the air-con in the bandroom breaking down. and the wierd smell, because of smelly socks. those lame band camps, and the even lamer regulations. challenging each other who can blast the loudest. then there is the conductor. shall not say much.

as you can see, i'm too bored with my life right now. progressively regressing back to my younger days. makes me feel like an old man. damn. fantasy variations is the song man.

rubbish post

2004-11-27T13:29:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while since i wrote some rubbish on me own diary online. listening to glen miller's in the miller mood now. big band sounds so good... its something that can be easily danced to. which reminds me of the SAJC mass dance. i liked the SAJC mass dance, which is a simplified lindy hop, bopping to the tune of "in the miller's mood". they have only one mass dance, but i think its the coolest mass dance i have seen. and its a nice partner dance. instead of the usual mass display, where everyone does the same moves.

nothing much this week, finished my GAC, so that sort of means i have converted. although without the proper presentation, i wonder if its all a farce. anyway life still goes on, still slacking around. there have been talks of taking grade 6 theory among me camp mates. sounds like fun though. gonna try studying by ourselves and figuring out the theory. its going to keep us occupied for this lull period. christmas is coming, lights are up in orchard. i wonder if there will be a celebration. everyone has like their own lives and social circle. when will we cross and form a venn diagram?

this end of year carries all the familiar scent that triggered off memories of school. school band, playing instrument, studying, the big O's and A's, school holidays and chalets, band camps. fun times i guess. i'm now living in a state of mind, where i'm glued to the rear view mirror, driving down the highway of life, regressing backward in time, instead of moving forward as i should. i'm now in a sentimental and nostalgic mode. can't seem to let go and embrace the new life, meet people that sort of thing. so wat should be done?

where are all the people i know? where are the friends? seems like my life consists of me myself and i and army. is it me? am i too slack? while everyone has a full-filling and busy schedule, i'm here thinking silly thoughts online. snigger worthy thoughts. i wonder i wonder.

9:06

2004-11-13T21:05:00.000+08:00

yeah man. that's my soc timing. i PASSED!! no more training till second year for me. no more torture muahahahah.

that's all

Adrenaline rush

2004-11-11T10:14:00.000+08:00

A day in the life of a reluctant teenager in service for the country.

Yesterday was a day filled with adrenaline. plenty of ball shrinking moments. but it was a good experiance. did rapelling for the first time in my entire life. the feeling was totally different and outta the world. i thought it was damn easy, since i have not much a fear of heights. but still it was a humbling experiance, as i leaned out at the edge of the wall, ready to descent. i felt like i did not have a good grip of the rope, and the harness was damn bardy tight, biting into my hips. i did not know wat to expect. felt like i was falling and falling. then came the slow descent. very exhilarating. when i finally touched the ground, i was feeling damn high already.

then came the mock up for the rapelling from a helicopter. its another different thing altogether. first had to run up the 7 flights of stairs shouting all the way, by the time i reached the place i was already tired out and sweating buckets. then came the descent. so i walked to position, sat down and waited. hooked up all ready to go. i slowly inched out to the helicopter skid. stood there. threw down the rope. and went to L-shape. that's the defining moment, where whatever garangness i have slowly shriveled up to mere nothing. i felt so unstable. ready to drop anytime. rope kept slipping, and the sensation of butt sitting on air, does nothing to further boost my confidnce. legs were clamped tightly together. the instructor went like," don't close your legs together like a virgin. open up more, shoulder width apart!! look at me! confidence man. ready? jump jump!" and the blur cock that i am, jumped and hit the underside of the platform. *oww* i braked and spun around. before continuing the descent. the rest of the trip was uneventful. i made sure i did a slow descend to enjoy the feel. haha very fun.

the day have not ended yet though. cos right after rapelling was a rush for soc training. its truly hell. the officer conducting this training made it sound so simple. he went like "you all run one round the soc route, then the secound round, you all clear the soc once" (at this point i thought ok, clear this and can be dismissed) but he went on... "run one more round, clear the obstacles again one more time, and come and report to me again." i was like, i'm gonna die terribly. coz the rapelling was like draining me energy and i had to do soc, which is tiring. so i ran the thing, my legs were like refusing to move. my face was like burning, from the hot afternoon. the distance seems never ending. i felt ready to collapse anytime. finally the end point. phew. it felt so good to rest. like a cool breeze on a hot humid day. dun understand how those fitness freaks can enjoy this kind of self inflicted torture...

And the day ended.

happy deepavali

cranky vcd player. sad sad

2004-11-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

sad sad day. first i was waiting for activation like a fool. hugging the blasted handphone. wasting my time indoors when the weather outside is so damn blardy good.

then i felt bored. so i played windstruck on my vcd player. its quite a nice show. i was happily watching it until horror of all horrors. the vcd player DIEDED on me. WITH the disc inside. i was like panicking man. praying to the vcd player to release the disc from its clutches. but the vcd player refused. giving me the malevolent empty stare. i was devastated. my disc is inside, trapped in the mouth of the unforgiving vcd player.

so much for technology and thompson. i will have my disc back. gonna plan a rescue operation for my disc. watch this space for the details.

the champion

2004-11-06T09:26:00.000+08:00

watched the champion on thurs, and wow, yilin was such a bitch that its ridiculus... its an entertaining watch. cringing at the whole stupidness of the scenario.

nothing much this week. except the ultra tiring training that is given on friday. its really no mercy. now i'm feeling the effects of the training. everywhere is sore man. its like those classic marines training movie, where the sergeant just keeps on drilling. damn difficult. feeling whoozy all over at that time. nearly puked. its really the extreme.

gonna have a understudy soon. can push all those sai kang and area cleaning to him. muahahahaha. can slack already. yeah!

money money money

2004-10-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

listening to ABBA now. orchestra version. royal philharmonic some more. man the horns are good. nice.

money money money. world stops if there are no money. it sorts of keep the world going.

saturday

2004-10-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

home for the weekend. time to kick back and relax, enjoy the civilian life, the student life that i'm so used to. the feeling of bumming around, watching tv, hanging around online. listen to the mp3 collection that i have built up illegally. life is good. u know wat is better? meeting up with people that i have not seen for a long time.

bad week, damn

2004-10-27T18:06:00.000+08:00

damn its a bad weekfor me. life looks bleak, with the upcoming audit. paperwork is a mess right now, ARGHHH i hate paperwork!!! who knows how many extras i'm gonna get for this mess. things are not going smoothly, lots of starts and stops and obstacles. when will this end? there are lots more things which i do not know. HOw HOW??

MO did a stunt a few days ago, wants me to keep a record of those being vaccinated.how the hell do i know who are the people? no prior record was kept. so it goes on and on. the endless mundane paper pushing life i lead. its actually quite a nice life, but with this damn audit, god knows how my life will be turned upside down.

damn i'm scared of commitments, unless shoved into it kicking and screaming, i won't even venture to a single commitment. taking a trembling,brave(?) step forward to commiting myself to saving. its for my future, but is it a wise choice? will i be able to support it after NS? damn damn damn.

warhammer, dawn of war is a cool game. can feel myself getting hooked to it slowly. but can't compare to the heady rush of excitement i had playing with my gaming khakis for warcraft.

so long for now. wait for my further bad news...

friday

2004-10-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

another week has passed. bopping to the ultra cool chen lei song, hua he dio ho. muahahhaa. i'm getting more powerful in earth. hahaahaha.

had a leisurely swim today. forgot to bring goggles, so my water confidence just dropped, had to wear the swim cap, telling the whole world i'm a weak swimmer. anyway,1 good thing came out of all these, i'm able to swim quite normally without goggles. quite an achievement. i think.

off to play neverwinter nights...

saturday

2004-10-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

was feeling terrible for the whole week. now better already, after talking cock to my friend about games in general, particularly earth. its me baby. also spent $2 trashing monsters in the arcade.

maybe i should do that more often, talk cock to people to take my mind off things for a while. now worrying about money for the near future. for me education and lifestyle expenses. more things to think about, the older i get. why can't i be like peter pan, stuck forever in my teens. no worries about money and the future, live for the moment that sort of thing.

thinking of learning piano again, do the lounge pianist kind of thing. sounds cool... wonder what are the returns like.

having duty tmr, sian.

tuesday

2004-10-05T20:15:00.000+08:00

quite a busy day for me. lots of happening in me department. there was this guy with this really bad abrasion when i reported for work. said he fell off the motorbike. had to do cleaning and dressing for him. then later on, came the highlight of the day, removal of stitches. it was quite a enligtening experiance. thought its some really cheem procedure. but actually i just have to grab the suture and snip it. then yank it out. muahahaha... there were two patients for that, so i guess my XP as a medic just went up. found out that we are having a audit in november, i better start on my paper work...

then had icct in the afternoon. learned how to release from all the headlock and bear hug thingy. still think its not really useful cos got to be gentle, after all its between friends. however looking forward to sparring, looks fun.

monday blues

2004-10-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

reported back to work on monday. usual ho hum humdrum day, plagued by minor crisis every few minutes. everyone virtually disappeared, and i unwittingly stepped forward to do work. handling and dealing with patients, and the lousy computer. triage is bad.

then the registration slip ran out. got someone to photocopy, but everyone had a high skill and profiency in tai ji that somehow, it just came back to me. i had to L L go and photocopy. somemore got told off by the lady, for using the photocopy machine, coz i'm not their department.

saturday

2004-10-03T16:21:00.000+08:00

went out on saturday with me best jc friends. spent the day playing lan games and bridge. and german bridge. it was a nice day with sunny weather. pity i had duty the day before, so i was quite stoned for the whole day. looking forward to the next outing, berner's gonna bring the ps2 down. yay!! another new dimension to the activities we are doing.

german bridge is quite exciting, especially towards the end, where the final round can make you the ultimate winner or loser because the stakes are high. VERY HIGH...

then we watched yi tian tu long ji, ( i think the english title goes something like The Legend of the Heavenly Sword and the Dragon Sabre...) quite an ok show, but the pace is very very S L o w... but the actresses made up for it. they are quite a looker. think i'm gonna catch the show because of them.

then the day ended.

it was a good day. a day well spent.

earth

2004-10-03T10:19:00.000+08:00

Muahahahha, i'm back again. playing earth. can't seem to get my hands off this online game. its time to kick some aths... time to recruit members for my axis of evil. muahahahhaah *evel laffter*

songs

2004-09-24T21:55:00.000+08:00

left toe right toe keep up the tempo
left toe right toe heyo eyo ah
here we go again
same old run again
up and down the seven hills
today is our book out day!!
book out book out book out day
hey lo ey lo ey lo ey lo ey lo wah ah
any sweat?
no sweat chicken feat haha all the way

drama at 7

2004-09-19T21:39:00.001+08:00

drama at 7

2004-09-19T21:39:00.000+08:00

life on sunday

2004-09-19T11:51:00.000+08:00

today is sunday, september 19 2004. listening to some crappy jay chou song. sister is acting wierd again. time now is 1154 by casio.

bought a new wallet yesteday at THE WALLET SHOP. yeap made by myuk. fancied a wallet that says "this is one lame wallet" but its for girls. sigh! why do girls get all the nice stuff? so settled for a more "manly" wallet. simple in design, and basically boring. but the feel is quite good.

watched dogeball also in bugis. its a feel good movie. quite crappy, but ok lar, i like. its quite witty. i think(?) the cheerleader is quite good looking, i still remember the name, julio gonzolas hope she gets more movie roles. makes me want to join the cheerleading squad. hehe

having a run on next sunday.

watched witness to a prosecution 2 last night. whoa zou zilong is one hell of a bastard. things are gonna get interesting. better get 8 days, can't wait to find out happens in the end. will zilong, or someone who masterminded the murders prevail, or will song ci and his lover yu zhu, be proved innocent. muahahhaha *rubs hands with glee*

thought of a quite cool present. but must figure out a way to make it. i call it the survival pack.

10km

2004-09-17T21:12:00.000+08:00

did a 10 km conversion run today at east coast park. very enjoyable, managed to see a few pretty gals running too. but i didn't wear my glasses. tried running bare body too. it feels good. will be doing that more often.

army open house sunday, day 4

2004-09-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

here's a boring update on the army open house.

yay, did my last cover for army open house today. someone will be doing tomorrow.

today had a chance to walk around the exhibits in the army open house. quite entertaining, looking at every one so fascinated with the army stuff, stuff which i do everyday for 2 years of my freakin life. its a different life, but should be kept at two years. its no fun restricting oneself, and doing duty.

talked to the lieutanant on the way back to camp. nice guy, friendly too. changed his dressing for him.

army open house on sat

2004-09-05T12:40:00.000+08:00

today covered for army open house AGAIN. nothing much, rapelling cover. not much stuff to do except wait. wait for the rapellers to do their stunt, then go home. its a sad sad life, weekend gone, sacrificed, for the public's entertainment, and the army's purpose. one consolation, i will be getting 2 days off. was planning to visit dunman today, maybe another day then. its nice to see my alma mater.

highlight of the day?

yeap had one heart stopping moment, one of the rapellers had some problems with the rope and was quite slow to descend. was really worried that something may happen to him. and i will really be in deep manure. VERY VERY DEEP. cos i really do not know what to do.

ooh ooh, another one. saw three quite pretty school girls on the way back to camp. i was quite sleepy at that time, until my friend pointed them out to me. it was like a breeze on a humid day, very refreshing, seeing them walk down the street. a song comes to mind, "pretty woman, walking down the street, pretty woman..."

down side of the day?

had to endure one of the driver's poor driving skills. he thinks he is racing daytona or the grand prix, did all the wild swerves like nobody's business. i was getting steadily carsick in the vehicle, while all the equipment were being thrown around in the rover.

friends are flying off starting next week. gonna miss them lots. and lots and lots.

listening to l-o-v-e by nat king cole.

Army open house

2004-09-02T19:51:00.000+08:00

Today went to army open house, covered for the rapellers. will be there for 5 days from 2-6. hope nothing happens for the rapellers, descending from the helicopter. wish i can do that too, looks fun.

wish

2004-08-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

went clubbing with friends on friday night. it was quite a big turn out. had loads of fun, drank and danced and jumped around. music was not that good, but the company more than made up for it. still buzzing from the fun i had. i guess clubbing is the best with dhssb pals.

i have a wish
wish we will always be together, and not lose contact. till we are old senile fools with white hair. walk through life together and experiance all of it in its full glory together. i wish this upon a shooting star.

i wonder if this wish will ever come true? life has its own plans, i hope this wish comes true. really.

jun ji-hyun rawks!!

2004-08-28T20:34:00.000+08:00

Listening to I will Survive on a saturday night. Grooving along to the beat. i think i'm becoming a fan of jun ji-hyun. haha yeah!!! saw her movies my sassy girl and windstruck. i find her very cool, and pretty. Her long flowing luscious locks and the figure that she has, plus the fact that she is kickass has won me over completely. wonder if i will ever meet her? just a thought, just a thought...

i enjoyed myself watching my sassy girl. it's a feel good sort of movie, where there is a happy ending. found myself rooting for the couple. and i wonder,if this ever happens in real life? where its so coincidental... fate and love do they ever go hand in hand?

off day

2004-08-23T18:04:00.000+08:00

lazed around today. minimal effort to enrich my life with the time given to me. having problems with my computer, seems like something is wrong with my IE. TECHNOLOGY SUCKS!!!

well its post atec, life is gonna be slack for me. no more cheong sua. WOOhOO!!! on a more depressing note, frends are flying to further their studies. gonna miss them lots. well have fun overseas!

i'll try harder tomorrow to do something more meaningful.

cheerios.

n ational day

2004-08-09T17:37:00.000+08:00

what did i do on a national holiday like national day?
hung around with my friends, played lan in katong shopping centre. it feels routine now, not having the usual excitement of playing lan. is it me? or is the game getting boring? dun have the usual high and kicks i get out of gaming with them. but still it feels good. i'm looking forward to the next long weekend or holiday where we can get together again. hopefully it will be the four of us instead of the usual 3. played starcraft for fun today, must say its a well designed game. lots of excitement. but dang, still can't master it. probably played too much campaign, can't really strategise. a good day spent.

gonna watch the parade at home later. but first, watch windstruck. jun ji-hyun is cool!!! i'm goona so be her FAN. *wind blowing*

sunday

2004-08-09T05:47:00.000+08:00

lalala. i'm inspired by my friend to start typing nonsense on the net. more junk data, contributed by yours truly.

2004-08-08T14:45:00.000+08:00

hey